Monday, July 24, 2006

THINGS ARE NOT ALWAYS AS THEY SEEM


WHY IS THAT? AS SOON AS THINGS SEEM NORMAL, WHAM... I DONT KNOW WHY...ANYWAY...

BUT IM STARTING TO FALL BACK INTO WHAT I SAID I WOULDNT DO...IM GIVING IT ONE MORE SHOT... I HAVE TOO... JUST TO FIND OUT FOR SURE THAT I CAN OR CANT MAKE THINGS GOOD AGAIN... I HOPE IT WORKS OUT AND IM NOT STEPPING ON MY YOU KNOW WHAT... I HOPE IT WORKS...CROSS YOUR FINGERS THAT IM NOT JUST DELAYING THE INEVITABLE...BUT I WILL NOT FIGHT... I WILL JUST LET IT GO AS SOMETHING I TRIED SO FUCKING HARD TO MAKE WORK AND IT JUST WASNT MEANT TO BE...

1 comment:

oakland heidi said...

i haven't read up in ages. We just pass on the road and never really get to talk. How I miss you.

Its always best to give it a go. Try it until there is just no air left to breathe.

She loves you. So much. I hear her say it, but I also see it.

I see it in the corners of her eyes and in the way she adjusts the bracelets on her wrists when she is sad.

I'm always here for you.

We all fuck up. She is having a huge growing pain. She is all mixed up. Love her through it if you can.