Monday, March 30, 2009

I AM VOLATILE!!!!

AM I EVIL.... YES I FUCKING AM....

these are the voices that used to speak here...

sadness...


depression...


anger....


HATRED...

I STARTED THIS BLOG TO VENT THE THINGS I COULD NO LONGER HOLD IN!!!! FUCK WHAT EVERYONE ELSE THINKS ABOUT MY ACTIONS.... I DON'T FUCKING CARE IF ITS WRONG OR RIGHT... THIS IS WHERE I DEAL WITH THE DEMONS AND THE ANGELS WHO SIT ON MY SHOULDERS!!!! GRRRRR.....


wickedness...

i used to say fuck the world!!!! what happened? when did i stop listening to the voices?



FUCK....


i used to vent here, get it all out.... what happened?

i am so fucking hostile... something will be done about this. served sweetest cold? i know. i know... all good things come to those who wait... yes, yes... i know the rules, i know how all things are done smartly and with caution... i am a participant.

so long its been, since proper retribution has come in a timely manner....

i am so fucking angry!!!!!!!!


we will see what we will see...


so there is that then.




if you CANT vent to the abyss then where do YOU let it all out... i used to have a journal. most of you might carry the same weight around. something you write in yours , hide it from others, keep it a secrete, forever you have this thing that you worry about. your spouse CANT read it. your roommates would die if they found out about the things you've said.

i have a book that id rather burn than someone stumble upon... fuck it, ill start transcribing here.... wanna know about me? ill start from the beginning of where i left off and work back wards....


...to be continued....

19 comments:

kylie said...

vent away.

i have another blog, not a public one.
havent used it for some time.....

probably should

INNER VOICES said...

YES... private invite please...

kylie said...

maybe i should think about that :)

INNER VOICES said...

always thought about one for the true abyss.....

Daisy said...

i used to write in a journal...then someone who just couldn't resist any longer looked...the violation i felt, the relief...anyway i no longer do that as i would rather keep my rage close in case i need to use it quickly and don't want anyone reading it...if not invited...(as you already are :)

Suzanne said...

Thinking of you.

Leah said...

You should use this for what you want to use it for and screw inhibition.

kylie said...

yes, i'm with leah on that one

Kimberly said...

Vent! Let it all out. Free yourself. Better to do it here then out in an alley way killing puppies or at home under the covers with a homeless person and a dozen twinkies. Just saying...

MJ said...

Tell us how you REALLY feel.

Gig said...

Yes...vent away...

I too have thought about another blog,for those thoughts that can haunt the recesses of our minds and need some place to go...

Brandy Rose said...

Its your blog. Do with it as you please. And if you scare anyone away, well, survival of the fittest aye.

Leni Qinan said...
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Leni Qinan said...

Sharing things sometimes helps get them off your chest, Zack.
But some secrets should remain locked deep inside a vault.

Just take care with what you post and protect yourself from unwanted visitors. A private blog is a good idea. You need to vent away, really.

So chin up and unburden yourself. I'm sure you won't scare the regulars, LOL.

INNER VOICES said...

pistol grip pump in my lap kickin it...

denim said...

PUMP PUMP on my lap at all times...

gettin your shred on?

wish i had some deep, meaningful, insight for ya homie. ok, i just wanted to use deep and insight in the same sentence.

the voices have resurfaced.

Robyn said...

Zack...I say speak from the hell you seem to be in friend...speak right out of that black hole! Just say it brother! Speak and let it spill from your mouth! Thinking of you Zack!
Hugs!

CSI Seattle said...

I like hearing what you have to say. In fact, when I first discovered your blog, you had mad crazy talk going all the time. It's what drew me to your blog and I liked it.

In fact, your honesty and expression was so honest that it made me feel a bit uncomfortable reading it. I remember commenting on your lack of spelling, capital's, and grammer, which just showed that you had mad typing going when you wrote your posts.

And besides, if it's theraputic for you, then it's good for us too.

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