C'MON CALL ME BACK

I REALLY WANT THIS HOUSE I LOOKED AT IN PALO... IT HUGE...ITS FOR SALE SO I COULD HAVE TO MOVE OUT AT ANY TIME BUT... I WANT IT...IT WAS A HUNDRED DEGREES THERE AT TEN THIRTY IN THE MORNING AND THE BUGS MADE IT LOOK LIKE IT WAS HAZEY OUT...(SOUNDS GOOD NO?) BUT IT WAS A NEW HOUSE...ALL BRAND NEW AND SHIT...NEW EVERYTHING... I MET WITH THE OWNER THIS WEEKEND AND HE SAID IT WAS ALL GOOD...I SHOULD HAVE GOT THE KEYS FROM HIM THEN...FUCK...BUT I PLAYED IT COOL AND SAID JUST DOUBLE CHECK WITH YOUR WIFE AND LET ME KNOW THIS WEEK OR SO...(FUCKED UP THERE) I WANT THE HOUSE... MY COUSIN IS COMING AND I DONT WANT HER TO STAY IN THE DUMP IM IN NOW...MAN...I CALLED THEM YESTERDAY AND LEFT A MESSAGE...TODAY I CALLED AND GOT THE SAME MACHINE...PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE CALL ME TODAY AND I WILL GIVE YOU CASH AND YOU WILL GIVE ME KEYS...I WILL TAKE CARE OF YOUR HOUSE AND YOU WILL LIKE ME... TWO BEDROOMS, HUGE, UPSTAIRS DOWNSTAIRS...NEW...PLEASE... GIMME... I WAS NOT GETTING MY HOPES UP AT ALL BUT... NOW IM SICK OF THIS SHIT HOLE IM IN AND WANT SOMETHING NICE...AFTER SEEING IT I REALLY WANTED IT...(WRINKLING MY NOSE AND IMAGINING A MAGICAL SOUND AND POOF...)
I HATE HAVING TO DO ALL THIS WRITING AT WORK... IF I HAD EVEN DIAL UP I COULD MAYBE GET SOME REAL EMOTION IN HERE...THIS FEELS SO CENSORED, SO TAME...SO IVE TAKEN TO WRITING IN MY BOOK AGAIN...THINKING I MIGHT TRANSCRIBE IT INTO HERE...YEAH RIGHT...NOT GOING TO HAPPEN...WELL SHIT...EVERY BODY IS MOPVING AND PEOPLE ARE HAVING TROUBLES...WHALES ARE WASHING UP ON MOLERA(TWO NOW) AND THEY FOUND PELICANS IN KING CITY...SOMETHING IS HAPPENING THAT WE DONT UNDERSTAND...WEIRD... ANYWAY FUCK IT...IM TRYING TO STAY POSITIVE ABOUT THINGS AND MAYBE SOMETHING GOOD WILL HAPPEN...