ALAWAYZ AT WORK

its tough to call someone up and give them bad news over the phone. some people are really good at it and others, well not so much... its never an easy thing to do especially when it involves death... its not an enviable job, being the bearer of bad news... i hate it myself.
i always get my bad news at work. it never fails, that's just the way it is. today was no exception...
i wasn't in the office when the call came but i was working, driving actually. in town.
i had to pull over. take a moment to myself and regroup. get back on the road and get my day going again. now here i am at lunch feeling like id rather see the bottom side of a pillow laying on my back. err....

i hate all the horseshit that goes along with death. "they are in a better place, she is with god now, " blah blah blah fucking blah....
i said "death is better than suffering. when ever hour of the day is spent in pain, its better to be dead." callous? i don't know... did i mean it, hell yes.

she was one of my favorite people on the planet.... when she started getting sick was the last time i saw her. she still beamed of youth and passion for life. this is how i will remember her, drink in hand, smiling and having the time of her life...