IM NOT QUITE SURE WHERE IM AT THESE DAYS...IVE BEEN GOING NON STOP FOR WEEKS IT SEEMS... I JUST GOT TO SLEEP IN FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MONTHS (WELL THATS HOW IT FEELS) AND I JUST DONT GET TO SPEND AS MUCH TIME AT HOME AS I WANT TO... SO MANY THINGS TO DO THERE... BITCH BITCH BITCH... I KNOW IT... BLAZE WANTS ME TO WORK MORE, I THINK... IM READY TO GIVE THEM MORE TIME... I NEED THE MONEY... IM ALL DISTRACTED RIGHT NOW... I CANT KEEP MY MIND ON ANY ONE THING... I THINK IVE CAUGHT SOME OF ERICS A.D.D.
WELL SHIT... SOME MANY THOUGHTS SWIRLING AROUND IN MY HEAD AND I CANT GRAB AT ANY OF THEM... I FEEL LIKE I HAVE NOT BEEN WRITING AS HONESTLY AS I COULD BE... FEAR OF PEOPLE READING WHAT I WRITE PERHAPS... OR SOMEONE IN PARTICULAR... WELL IF THATS TRUE I SHOULDNT EVEN BOTHER WRITING ON HERE AT ALL... BUT I DO WRITE AS HONESTLY AS I CAN.. I JUST DONT WRITE ABOUT CERTAIN THINGS I GUESS... I DONT WRITE NON-TRUTHS OR LIE, I GUESS I JUST DONT PUT EVERY THING IN THAT I COULD... LAME I KNOW... HARD TO BELIEVE WHEN I GO BACK AND READ WHAT IVE PUT DOWN THAT THERE COULD POSSIBLY BE ANY MORE, BUT THERE IS... WELL IVE GOT TO GET SOME WORK DONE... TRACTOR BREAK DOWN DAY!!! HAVE A NICE MONDAY...
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you wrote this 5 hrs before I knew this existed...like you felt it was coming...
"I FEEL LIKE I HAVE NOT BEEN WRITING AS HONESTLY AS I COULD BE... FEAR OF PEOPLE READING WHAT I WRITE PERHAPS...OR SOMEONE IN PARTICULAR... "
I am afraid of that honesty and will never read this again...I am in shock...I don't even know who you are...I miss our friendship when you weren't afraid of me and would talk to me freely about your thoughts...why is this on the fucking web...this world sucks so bad...
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