Thursday, August 28, 2008

dark cloud

its a dark day when a local dies...
its a black day when its a child...
its not a day at all when its someone you know...
what is it when its all three...


there was an accident last night/this morning. a fatal accident. here at the office they have been on the phone since seven to find out who it is. its always this way. we all want to know. help. console. what else does a person do? you always hope its not true and not some one you know. but, then you are hoping it was someone else. someone else daughter, sister, friend...
who was it...
how did it happen...
who were they with...
yeah, if its who they say, we know the answer to all those questions and more. only because it so small town and we all know each other so well, almost nothing will surprise us except the when was it going to happen. i hate this shit... i hate that i might know the dad, boyfriend, sister, mom...
i hate knowing that if they are right the town will undoubtedly change for all those people....
I'll know in a minute, our office gal just went to where the best friend is reportedly hanging out and sobbing. we know her too. we know her dad. and if it is who we think, her dad would have been serving the driver of the car until closing.
it never ends.
it never fails.
it is never any easier...
as i get older, the more i see. death, love, life, new beginnings and lives cut short. it was all so long ago when it started. friends in junior high rolled a stolen car after a party. a party i was at. popular people. people who if would have asked me to go with them i would have said yes... what does it mean to be popular then... I've convinced folks into my car time and time again... luckily everything turned out... death came into my life so long ago...
not all are so lucky.
not all have survived.
less have learned from it.
office gal has been gone a long time now and when she returns this wont be pretty. this will not be a good day. she just walked in the door. and said that the parents are at fernwood waiting for a sheriff to tell them whats going on. that could take hours. we don't have cops here and they hate coming here, they hate the locals, they hate accidents involving kids and alcohol and drugs even more...
what will it be then.
who will it be now.
why them, why this time....


to be continued....



edit: yep... driver was in a dark green truck. rolled it. ejected the girl from the truck. she died and he fled the scene... fled the scene!!!! *blood starts to boil*
ideally this town will sort him out... find him and make him re-disappear... before her dad finds him...


gah, i feel so bad for her dad... his girls are his life... fuck

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17 comments:

Random Chick said...

My thoughts go out to you and those who lost someone today.

INNER VOICES said...

thanks...
the bloggers here always, always, always have the best things to say.. thanks, and im sure the angels hear you too!

MJ said...

Hug the ones you're with.

Megan said...

Oh man. My little morning worries just went away real quick...

Walker said...

I hear you and know what you're saying.
My heart goes out to the family and those close to them.
It's never easy experiencing the unthinkable.

That Guy said...

shit. it never ends around here.

oakland heidi said...

oh no.

I always pray. Even though I'm not religious.

denim said...

so that's why there were 5 chp heading down there this morning. i was going to suggest some afternoon beers but i always seem to have the worst timing...

i'm afraid for everyone. this sounds bad.

INNER VOICES said...

denim, yo... surprise bday party at farmers house... yeah timing eh? like to see you there though... gimme a buzz when youve settled into yer day.

oakland... they are gonna need them. i'll join you in that thought.

that guy... youre right and im afraid not.

walker, thanks man... as an almost dad i feel the rage building... i dont wish this shit on anyone.

megan, thanks for the comment. its all relative though. take care of your worries and smile through the day okay!?

mj, its always seemingly so fucking round here isnt it? thanks for the words!!!

INNER VOICES said...

MJ, its always seemingly so fucking DARK AROUND here isnt it? thanks for the words!!!

grrr...

*wonders why he never spell checks his fucking comments*

oakland heidi said...

Wow. So heavy.


Love you all.

Don't drink and DRIVE.

Mr. Shife said...

I am terribly sorry to hear about this. My thoughts and prayers to everyone hurting over this tragedy especially to the young girl's family.

Gig said...

Sorry to hear about this tragedy, so young...I have gkids this age. Live in a small town too, so I understand the pain.

Take care and know we are all sending you our thoughts and prayers.

kylie said...

you seem to get more than your share of the dark stuff.
i'm hoping that means things are soon to turn around, no-one can get ALL th ebad luck, can they?

my thoughts and prayers are with you all
xx

Kay said...

This link seemed to have more info: Monterey Herald Most Viewed

Being from a small town as well, I feel for you all. Good thoughts and my prayers to you all.

Daisy said...

damn...sorry to hear that...we just had one here where a friend of mine's brother was texting while driving and rolled the car 3 times snapping his neck...it's so hard when it is young people (god i sound old) but they have so much ahead of them...it truly is tragic...my thoughts are with you...

INNER VOICES said...

oakland! heavy indeed!

mr. shife. thank you man... if i could tell them i would. right now im just staying away and when i do see the folks i just give them a bit of normal instead of the whole hugging and sobbing thing.

gig, thank you for your words...

kylie, its not that i get all the bad luck, im just around enough people often to were im exposed to it... i will pass on your good vibes though! thank you...

kay, you da bomb!!!

daisy, thank you as well for all your thoughts and vibes!!!