Wednesday, November 15, 2006

LIFE SUCKS, DEAL WITH IT!

Here's a little note to my life...

Fffffffuuuuuuckkkkk yyyyooooooouuuuu...

Yeah that feels a little better... Looking forward to some serious drinking these next few weeks... My promise to not divulge others lives will leave you all with no idea what the fuck I'm talking about... Things are okay otherwise... There is one portion of my life that has changed for the better and one that has been changed for(well I don't know what the hell its changed for, but, I guess its changed for the last time...) anyway...

I used to be such a good drunk, now I kindof suck at it... I get tired and go to bed, instead of passing out. I drink a glass or six of water before I sleep instead of making a stiff gin and tonic for the bedside... I make sure the dog is fed and watered, where I used to just tell him, "deal with it." I used to have only the cheapest swill in plastic bottles and crappy warm beer... Nowadays my liquor cabinet looks more like a well stocked upscale bar with cold beer in the fridge.(I even have matching ice cold mugs in the freezer.)... I don't even like wine, but I have at least two cases of some premium reds, five different types of white, champagne and port as well... WTF?

I used to call in sick for days at a time and tell them I was basically too drunk to come in and wouldn't be any use to them anyway... Now I at least call, say ill be late or just go in and suffer... What happened.. And what happened to the drinking contests? Yes I would win everytime(mostly) and keep going after that... Now they never even come up!

I remember saying. " I wish I didn't have to sleep at night because it kills my buzz."

Or after waking up i say... " I just spent all that time getting fucked up! And I passed out?!?!? What a waste of money, now I have to do it all over again... "

I remember we went on a two day backpacking trip into the mountains.. I brought ecstasy and beer... No food, no tent, no extra clothes, nothing... Everyone was going on day hikes and taking photos while I was wandering around with my head in the clouds tripping my brains out, pounding beers all day and night... I think I had brought two thirty packs on that one...

Where did that guy go? Now, I'm someone different... And you know what? I like me better now... Things are different for a reason, I'm sure of it...

But to not go on a good bender every now and then? muwahahahahaha...(evil laugh)

3 comments:

Black Egg said...

There's nothing wrong w/ becoming a...err...responsible drunk! C'mon, now that you've listed what's in your liquor cabinet, your friends are gonna' be like, "So when's the next rager?" Haha!! See, you might go on a bender sooner than you think!

tasha said...

hi. i think that you are a very good drinker and if they had the olympics for drinking i would definatly want to be on your team.
but i was just wondering cus i dont think i will be saving much money any time soon, cus i wanna come see you again, if you could come visit me? i understand if work or whatever doesnt make you able to leave right now but if it does.... i really miss you.

INNER VOICES said...

B.E. no doubt, but fotunetly ive given up the party house routine... so many huge ragers have come and gone at my house and at my expense that i have passed the torch...

Tasha... thanx for getting back to me! i have no excuse as usuall as to why i never call... im right there with you on the money thing... i wanted to come up for october... things werent going well for me and the lady for a while so that took up quite a bit of time and energy... we did go to hawaii after my birthday and that ate up my meager vacation pay and savings... i love you to pieces and ill call you soon, i promise.