Monday, June 30, 2008

SOME THOUGHTS

WE HAD THE BEST OXYGEN TODAY IN SEVERAL DAYS....
ITS HARD TO KNOW WHAT TO PACK AND WHAT NOT TO...
ITS HARD BEING IN THIS HOUSE ALONE...
WHAT DO YOU BELIEVE AND DONT YOU?
YOU CAN SEE THE FIRES FROM ALL AROUND BIG SUR NOW...
I FUCKING REALLY FUCKING HATE TELEVISION CREWS...I DONT GIVE A SHIT IF THATS HOW PEOPLE GET THEIR NEWS AND WHAT THEY THINK IS REALITY, THE REALITY IS I TRIED TO SHOVE A KSBW TELEVISION CAMERA CREW TRUCK OUT OF AND OFF ONE OF THE PULL OUTS ON OUR ROAD TODAY, I STOPPED BECAUSE I THOUGHT MY AIR BAGS MIGHT DEPLOY AND AFTER SAYING SOME UBER ASSHOLISH STUFF TO THESE PEOPLE I STARTED TO FEEL A LITTLE BAD AND SLIGHTLY DRUNK.I FUCKING REALLY FUCKING HATE TELEVISION CAMERA CREWS.... PERHAPS I ALREADY SAID THAT.
I DONT THINK ITS GOING TO BURN EXACTLY HERE AT MY HOUSE BUT IM SICK OF LOOKING AT THE REST OF MY SHIT HERE AND WONERING HOW HARD IT WOULD BE TO REPLACE IT ALL...
HOW MUCH WAS THAT SEVENTY TWO PIECE SET OF PLATNIUM LINED DISHWASHER SAFE DINNERWARE ANY WAY....
WHATS BEHIND ALL THOSE OTHER BOXES OF SHIT IN THE SHED?
DO I REALLY NEED THESE GOLF CLUBS?
I FUCKING REALLY MISS BLOGGING.
DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO PUT TWO LARGE AND FREAKED OUT BIRDS INTO AN ANIMAL CARRIER, "ITS LIKE GETTING WET LEATHER LEGGINGS OF A WOMAN WHO IS KICKING!" SERIOUSLY, DOES ANYONE ONE KNOW?
CAN THEY FORCEFULLY EVACUATE A DRUNK MAN WITH AN ANGRY PITBULL? (shhh.... dont tell anyone, but im up here unarmed besides my gay pitbull and his lover.... who will fetch the stick for you to death...)
I WISH MY LANDLORD WOULD COME UP HERE AND HELP ME SAVE MY HOUSE... YES ITS MY FUCKING HOUSE, I PAY RENT AND THAT MAKES IT MINE TO DEFEND DAMMIT... ID STAY HERE AND DEFEND IT WITH HIM, BUT HE ONLY WANTS SOME PAINT THAT IS UNDER THE CABINETS IN MY SHOP!?!?
OUR PHONE LINE HAS BEEN FUCKING UP LATELY...
I THINK THE SMOKE UP HERE IS TOXIC AND NOT GOOD FOR CHILDREN.
CHEESES GIRLS LEFT YESTARDAY AND THAT WAS ONE OF THE MOST IMPOSSIBLE THINGS TO WATCH... IMPOSSIBLE...
CHEESE LEFT TODAY TO BE WITH THEM....
THIS HASNT BEEN MUCH OF A BLOG AS OF LATE AND IVE BEEN DOING A PISS POOR JOB AT BEING A GOOD BLOGGER.....
at least there is a small bar here in the kitchen, i could drink the house empty before they pry this from my cold dead hands...wait, thats part of some one elses speech.... uh... hiccup...what?!?!
THE CHICKENS DONT SEEM TO BE LAYING ANY EGGS WITH ALL THIS SMOKE, IF THEY DID, WOULD THEY BE CHIPOTLE FLAVOR, OR A NATURAL SMOKED BLEND.... HMMMM, SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT EH? CA-CHING?!?!
IS THAT KNIFE SET WORTH PACKING UP? THEY ARE NOT HENCKELS!? TOASTER OVER?MY ANTIQUESISH BLENDER FROM B-HAM? MY HOOKA? WE HAVE MORE BOOKS THAN WOULD FIT IN MY TRUCK IN ONE LOAD! BOOKS DOWN THE MOUNTAIN? MY ITALIAN LEATHER COUCHES? WHAT? AM I STILL THINKING ABOUT MOVING COUCHES?!?!?
IN REALITY WE HAVE ANOTHER FULL TWO TRUCK LOADS OF STUFF WE CANT LEAVE.. CHEESES GRANDMOTHER CHEST OF DRAWERS SET... KIDS BUNK BEDS! GAAAAGGGHHHH!!!!!!
MY MOM IS STILL IN A SMALL URN UPSTAIRS, BETTER MAKE SURE SHE ROLLS WITH ME, I DONT THINK SHE WOULD WANT TO BE UP HERE WITHOUT ME...
IM BEAT AND IM GONNA TAKE TOMMOROW OFF AS WELL, ANYBODY WANT TO WORK TWENTY TWO MINUTES OF EVERY HOUR AND SPEND THE REST OF TIME DRINKING AND LISTENING TO GREAT SONGS BY MARKY MARK? AQUA? DAFT PUNK! AC/DC? SOCIAL DISTORTION? THE CULT? NO EH? DAMN....

I THINK THE INTERNET IS GOING TO TRY AND FUCK MR RIGHT NOW... SEE IF I CAN POST THIS....

16 comments:

kylie said...

things can only get better from here. cant they?
i'm thinking of you, pulling for you, praying for you, whatever does it for you
take care
xx

hnter1018 said...

Take Care of yourself and get what you can.Good to hear from you on here. Keep the updates coming when you can but don't stress over doing so.

MJ said...

We miss you too.

just bob said...

You must be exhausted and stretched to the limit. I can't believe the owner isn't up there helping you. And I agree with you on TV crews... in general they are vultures feeding off the misfortune and despair of others to benefit themselves, TV ratings, and the almighty ad dollar.

Take that needed time off and don't worry about those golf clubs, I'll give you the extra set I've got lying around somewhere.

Random Chick said...

I have no words to ease your frustration...I'm just glad you let it out. I wish I could come up there and help you get everything or hose down your roof or kick the TV crews' asses or whatever. Please be safe.

Suzanne said...

I have tears in my eyes, but you know me. Just take personal belongings you can't possibly replace. It's all that really matters honey. And please make sure all the animals go with you, even the chickens. Please don't leave them. I'm sorry you have to go through this and I pray your house survives and that you have a place to return. Please don't stay. Protecting a house isn't worth losing your life. A house can be replaced and things can be replaced. You can't.

Love to all and please stay safe.
Suz XO

Gig said...

Wish there was something I could do to help, take what you can't replace and stay safe. We are all here and miss you. You and the Cheeses are in my thoughts and prayers.

Gig, xo

oread the SSA said...

saw in the news they're evacuating all of big sur...I was all worried about you, good to know you got out, bud! Here's hoping you and the ladies (and the doggies!!!) stay safe & sane.

oread the SSA said...

OH and if you want you can totally come camp in my living room, it's safe here...as it's currently fucking raining.

denim said...

ahahaha, love the drunken posts. i can see you writing them...

so a small update for y'all.

the fire is fucking insane.

it's starting to look pretty out of control to me, it's almost at the highway, which to me, is way too late. these officials that get hired are pretty fucking worthless, firefighters and dozer operators want to work. but they have been told to wait until, hopefully, now. i want my tax money back, and you can damn well bet i am writing off EVERYTHING this year. little tangent there, sorry...

as far as i know Z is still up there clearing trees and brush. i was up there the day after he posted this and the landlord was there and helping! he was supposed to come back yesterday, but i was busy packing and evacuating my place so i couldn't get up there. the whole east side of the valley was pretty much on fire when i left last night around 7.

now they are closing more of the highway since they can't do jack shit. i think that's about it for now, i'll try to update y'all if i talk to Z.

Suzanne said...

Denim,

Thank you so much. The local news this morning was that all of Big Sur had been evacuated. Did they take Zack kicking and screaming or is he still up there? Then a few minutes ago, CNN had an update (about 4 pmish) and it was rather alarming. The reporter relayed that even the headquarters for firefighters was being evaculated and it's the one thing always put in the safest place. It's going to burn to the ocean. I have no doubt, and I'm sure none of you do either. My heart goes out to all of you. I know how horrible it must be and I'm so sorry. I hope you were able to take all the personal items that mean the most to you. Take good care of yourself my dear, and know that we all care about you. If you see Zack, please let him know how much we love him. Hang in there all of you. It'll end because it can't burn forever.

With love

Cecile said...

Oh I don't really know what to say here. Just know that we are hoping and praying things get better over there. It is so sad to see the destruction of such beautiful place. Please take care of yourself. Don't worry about blogging, we aren't going anywhere. We would wait for eternity for you to get back. Because we like you that Damn much.

Be safe.

Kookaburra said...

Zack,
I SINCERELY HOPE THAT YOU AND YOUR FAMILY AND PETS ARE SAFE. I AM SURE THAT YOU HAVE PROTECTED YOUR HOME BY STOPPING ALL THE DOWNPIPES WITH TENNIS BALLS, OR SOMETHING LIKE THEM, AND FILLING THE ROOF GUTTERS WITH WATER TO STOP THE BURNING EMBERS GETTING IN UNDER THE EAVES. CLOSE ALL OUTSIDE DOORS AND WINDOWS. AND THEN GET THE FUCK OUT OF THERE. I AM PRAYING FOR YOU ALL.

@denim,
Thank you for the update. If you are able to can you please tell zack that I hope he is okay?
Also, if you can, please post another update. However I understand that blogging will be furtherest from your mind right now and that Big Sur comes first. Although I don't know you I am thinking of you and praying for you also.

Mark, from Australia.

Hi to everyone.
ps. pls excuse the F word.

Leah said...

Zack, I'm thinking of you, pulling for you guys, we all miss you and send a million good thoughts and prayers your way--hugs to you all--kind of silly, but it's all I've got--

FirstNations said...

HOLY FUCKING SHIT, ZACK! are you ok? speak to us!!!!

INNER VOICES said...

YOU GUYS ARE ALL AWESOME! THANKS SO MUCH!!

kylie, well things always seem to get worse before they better, but yeah at the moment things are looking bettter for sure!!!

hntr! unfortunetly everything i managed to remove from the house that first day is at my work and as im typing this seven boys from my work are fighting along side the firmen there trying to save the buildings!!!

mj, thankyou and everyday i miss out on blogging im missing out on all of you!!!

bob! thanks for the kind words and understanding! we will have to have a round of "where the fuck is that dammn ball" when this is all over !

random! i know you would be here in a minute!!! thanks!


suz!! thanks for all your kind words and prayers, we are okay, better than most of the people i know in big sur... we have been working damn near non stop at this point and i have had the best of friends working and kicking some major fucking ass up here...

gig, just thinking about us is so much help! folks have said i wish i could do more, but every little bit helps! even positive thoughts go a long way...

yipster!!! and thank you tooo for thinking of us and offering us you rainy day state and couches... it will be soon enough when we will all sit around and drink some coors lite and tequilla!!!

denim, you my fucking man homie!!! yeah....

cecile, the destruction here will only be truely known once winter hits... with all the fire the hillsides are going to be so unstable and loose. our water sheds will dam and flood and kill/ruin anything in their paths come the rains.... thanks for your thoughts as well!

kook! thanks for some good ideas, we only have one gutter but will be plugging it up be for we leave... today we are installing a rainbird on the roof and once mandatory evac. has come and gone and i see fire on our ridge i'll be turning the timer on and hopping on the dirt bike outta here!!

leah, thats not to silly at all... sometimes a warm embrace is all thats needed...

nations!!! we are good and safe, no harm will come to us or animal in our care... we are beat to shit and our arms hang low to the ground as we march up and down the hill with tress and chaisaws to load the wood chipper and splitter.... its good to have some heavy wor to do to keep our minds off of what could be comeing!!! our phone is working again and the scanner keeps us up on the closest imediate news as possible.... thanks for checking in on me!!!