Sunday, November 05, 2006

Here is something!

I find it hard to believe that there are moments in life where we don't all just get knocked back into our seats and say WTF!

Are there not moments in a book that make you put it down? Not because you refuse to read it any more but you simply cant? Your eyes fill and you fucking cant breath? Not crying, but almost? A movie does it? A place in time? Some one says something that unexpectantly hits you from the back? Never feel that way? No? You are so lucky....

I wish I was you...

I read something in the paper today, then I saw something on TV, then I was told something private from a friend and then... I listened to N.P.R. on the way home.... That was as far as I got... I pulled into Palo Colorado and parked.. I got out of my truck, and let it out!!! I screamed and let loose a demon from the deep!

Yeah you are imagining it now... Some dude standing on the side of the road, next to his truck throwing a tantrum...

I assure you this was not the situation...

I got back into my truck, wiped off my face, reached back and petted my dog and calmly drove up here... Unloaded the dish washer, threw a load into the washer and cracked a beer.

Is there ever a day where you hear too much? See too much? Read too much? And finally don't have anything else to say?!?!?

Good I'm not crazy...

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

it seems that when I am down life tests me...to see how much I will let things affect me...to see how I will handle the moment...to see if I am as strong as I think I am...lots of thing affect my mood, my emotions, my heart, my mind...and the only way to exist is to try and calm the inner voices and keep control over your mind...not let it run wild or let every little thing affect you...lifes a bitch...but its not worth the pain...

this is easy to write and hard to practice in my day to day life...but I believe it is the only way...not to numb but to gain control with your mind and not with substances...it is so much easier to numb though...